Elaine was drunk that night but she still remembered most of what went on. Who could forget something like that? She really hadn't wanted to come to this party, but her best friend Rhonda had insisted they come.
Rhonda's boyfriend, Bill was throwing a birthday party for his cousin, David. Elaine wasn't comfortable around David, he always stared at her in a way that was really weird. It made her feel dirty.
She was under the impression there would be a lot of people at the party. There was only seven and three of them left after a game of quarters started. Leaving only her, Rhonda, Bill, and David. She was really bad at quarters so it didn't take long for her to get drunk. The only thing on her mind then was finding a bed and crashing. Bill had to carry her to the bed and Rhonda helped her get into bed. Both were laughing non-stop. That really struck Elaine as odd.
Her peaceful sleep was interrupted by a heavy weight bearing down on her. It was David, he had pulled down her shorts and was trying to get her shirt off. She began struggling, it was like being in a dream where you are completely powerless to even control your own body. She was on the verge of passing out when a hard bite to her left breast brought her back. It seemed like the attack lasted forever, she vaguely remembers a hand around her neck and a tongue being shoved down her throat. When he finally entered her, she felt a sharp pain and then nothing. It wasn't happening to her anymore, it was happening to someone else. That's what she kept chanting over and over in her mind until she believed it.
An eternity later David finally rolled off of her, she just laid there not knowing what to do. He looked at her and stroked her face while saying, "I'm not like the other guys, I love you." With that Elaine put her over the side of the bed and vomited.
She awoke the next morning with a pounding headache. All she wanted to do was find Rhonda and go home. She was so ashamed, how could she live with what happened? She sat up on the side of the bed and a burning pain shot through her vaginal area. Oh, God, she prayed, please don't let me be pregnant or some disease. She quickly dressed ignoring the pain, and went in search of Rhonda.
She was sitting at the kitchen table all smiles. Before Elaine could say a word, Rhonda said, "Hey girl, surprise, you were David's birthday gift! He said he really loved it."
Elaine just stared at her friend in disbelief. This isn't real she thought. She convinced Rhonda to drive her home. All the way Rhonda kept talking about how loud her and David were last night. Elaine just blocked it out. She couldn't get home fast enough. She walked into her house and went straight to the shower. She let the water get as hot as possible and got in. Scrubbing herself until her skin was raw. She took four showers that morning and still felt dirty.
She never spoke to Rhonda again and has never wanted too. She never
told a soul what happened, the guilt and the shame were too strong. Besides
what if she asked for it, she was drunk. Maybe she deserved it. Thankfully
she didn't get pregnant or catch anything. She just pretends it never
happened, it works most of the time. Except on certain nights when the
David comes to her in her dreams. But she manages, what else can she do?
S.N. 8-98
Last updated 11th October 1998